Ever notice how you either have nothing going on or EVERYTHING all at once?

For the last seven months, I’ve been doing pretty much the same thing all the time. I was preparing meals, cleaning house, blogging, taking Shane places six days a week & working the seventh day {first a play teacher, then an art teacher} at Gymboree. While I’m always busy doing something, it’s been fairly low-key. For the last three months, I was literally working four hours a week.

Shane at Gymboree, 13 months old {Sept 2010}

All of a sudden, this week, I have a whole new life in front of me. I’m still going to be preparing meals, cleaning house, blogging & taking Shane places, but a few things have changed:

-Saturday, I taught my last class. I was really sad to leave, but:

-I start an internship today. It’s paid &I will be working 20 hours a week, making twice as much per hour as I did as a teacher. It was an opportunity I couldn’t turn down. The internship is in social media, which is even better, and is 8 weeks long. AND,

-I am going back to my old job part-time starting the first week of August. This is something that look a lot of thought &consideration since it is a long-term thing & not 8 weeks long like the internship, but ultimately it is the decision I had to make for my family. The money will be helpful & beyond that, we are considering buying a portion of the company in the future {Hubby works for the same company} &so if that happens, it will be good for me to be up-to-date on what’s going on and how to do everything. I worked there for three years but I quit when I was eight months pregnant, almost two years ago to the day. So it’ll be weird to be back but in a way it’s like I just took an extended maternity leave.

Me at my old {-and-now-new-again} desk, circa 2006

One thing that I am really struggling with is that I will be leaving Shane with other people so much. Luckily, the internship is work-from-home, but the job is not. I will only be working three days a week, and Shane will likely be with my mother-in-law {who is absolutely obsessed with him} on those days, but I am still saddened by it. But I try to remember that I have been very fortunate to be able to stay home with him as long as I have, and that he’ll be just fine without me hovering over his shoulder, pointing out every letter, number, and shape we see.

The other thing that I’m apprehensive about is that I just know I’m going to start falling behind on things. Already I haven’t been blogging as much, because of course when moms are pressed for time we tend to give up our hobbies rather than delegating laundry & dish duty, am I right? However, I’m determined to not let that continue & in fact over the next couple of weeks I am rolling out some fun new features that I hope you like.

But even beyond blogging, I am wondering how I am going to get everything done, especially when August comes around & I’m working AND doing the internship: dishes, laundry, bathtime, bedtime, learning, meals, packing lunches, organizing, vacuuming, grocery shopping, etc. will all need to be done; I looked into it & unfortunately, there are still only 24 hours in a day. So Hubby has been informed that I will need help, but it’s going to take some getting used to and a new routine to go with it.

But I like my routine. So I’m kind of anxious. But I know what an amazing opportunity this internship is and what a great job I’m going back to {the paperwork & filing I could do without but the people, environment & flexibility are stellar} and so that’s helping to keep me going.

Change is hard, but it’s the only constant.

Anyway, I’m not going anywhere- in fact, life’s about to get a lot more blogworthy!

Susie’s Note: By the way, quitting Gymboree to go back to my old job is the “secret” I couldn’t discuss in this post, since it wasn’t for sure yet & I wanted my Gymboree boss to know I was leaving before the internet found out.